Inside her mind (18th January 2010)

Assalamualaikum...

Last night, my wife and I had a dinner at one restaurant in Malacca. We sat in the foyer, where there was Astro Supersport showing past matches of 2009 Australian Open Grand Slam (The 2010 Open starts today).

As has been my habit since i started playing tennis couples of years ago, everytime there's tennis matches on tv, i will be like... transfixed to the screen!
And certainly not helping my case last night, the matches featured two very attractive (and of course, sexy) female players!

So, i was between chewing my food and admiring the play (not the players!) when i realized my wife was staring at me with narrowed eyes.

"Honey..." I called. "Wh..what's wrong?"
She didn't answer. But couple of seconds later, she smiled a smile that i've come to know that there was something bothering her and she didn't want to tell me.

But i quickly put two and two together and realized immediately what was exactly inside her mind at the time. She was bothered that i was watching other women (no matter who or what they do) and that was when i was right beside her!

Well, being a charming husband that i am, hehe, i quickly apologize to her and for the rest of the meal, tried very hard to avert my eyes from the screen.

Later, when we were holding hands, heading to our car, i asked her playfully,
"Err honey, about what just happened, you still trust me... right?" To what she replied,
"Hmm, after what happened? Not really..." while pouting her lips.
"What?!" I exclaimed, faking a hurtful voice and look, which made her laugh, but still shaking her head.

For those who are observant enough -in human behavior (women's in particular)- would know that although my wife was laughing while she said that, she was actually kinda meant it! Of course she will deny it if you asked her about it point blank. But make no mistake, deep down in her heart, she actually had this very tiny doubt lingering about 'what if questions' and whether she can trust me completely!

And so, what did i do?
I put my arm around her shoulder warmly, but tighter than usual as to emphasize what i wanted to say to her and said,
"You know i will never do anything to hurt you, right? Believe me, honey. I will never cheat on you, not even in my mind! InsyaAllah!!!"
Later, i thought that was a very BIG promise, but still it's something that i think i can hold up to it.

Oh, and her respond to what i said?
For a while she looked stunned. Then, slowly, she nodded her head and said softly,
"I trust you, abang..."
After that we continued walking, as if nothing ever happened. Of course i can't really know what's inside my wife's mind. But as far as i can tell, i've covered everything that i should be covering and she fully accepted it.

I always tell my friends, that the key to a healthy relationship is understanding. And to understand other person, just picture yourself in his/her position, or as people said put yourself in his/her shoes, and BAM... InsyaAllah, you will get a glimpse of what's inside their mind!
And believe me, one glimpse is waaaaay better than nothing at all...

Endless Love

Endless Love

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Oh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind

'Cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
That You know I don't mind

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause no one no one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

 

Best of both worlds ( 29th December 2009 )

Assalamualaikum...

By AidanZ

We talk about changes all the time but very few of us are ready when it came descending upon us. The question is, how well would you embrace and adapt to the changes or you simply resisted it with all your might and power?

Still talking about the recent married life of course, I still remember how not so long ago, I, proudly and a little bit arrogantly, announced to my close friends that I won't change any of my lifestyle after i got married. I remember saying to them, I'm a city boy at heart... to the core, and nothing can change that. Nothing whatsoever!!

 
And I truly believe that! After all, i have no reason not to. I've spend my almost entire adult life in KL, and I can't just picture myself living in my hometown in Masjid Tanah.

But now, guess who's longing to go back and get settle there? Yeah, it's ME... the city boy at heart... to the core!!!

Funny when I think back of how nervous I was about getting married because i was scared i can't continue with my 'city thingy whatever', yet now so readily to embrace the changes which may alter the course of my life as i see it before.

Is it honeymoon effect? Or is it simply Love?
OR... maybe it is the destiny that lies waiting all this time, and just recently awaken by the sacred vows of marriage?
Hoho, whatever it is, i will keep my eyes wide open and pray to Allah for His Guidance. He knows better of what material i really made of, and will InsyaAllah, show me what's best for me and my family.

As for now, I will have to try balancing life of the two worlds.
And try to get the very best of both worlds...

P/S: Looks like i changed my mind about putting my wedding photo here huh. Hmm, talk about changes..

Me and My Wife ( 28th Dec 2008 )

Assalamualaikum...

It's been three weeks since my last post and three weeks also as a married man.
Do i like it? I Love It. As simple as that. No need to elaborate more.

I've been asked to put my wedding pictures here, but i found myself grimacing each time i look at them. In my mind, i said, it's not me. It was somebody else, wearing baju melayu, samping, tengkolok/songkok, while posing and smiling awkwardly, as if wishing he was somewhere else! The only time i really enjoyed posing for pictures was with my friends, and even then, i still look uncomfortable in those attire!

Hehe, my dear wife will 'tarik muka' if she read this. Sorry honey...!

So i decided to put one picture here. Not a wedding picture. But a photo of us, honeymooning at Cameron Highlands two weeks ago. I don't know about you guys but I think it's a good photo, and most important, bring a smile to my face each and every time i look at it...

One picture speaks a thousand words, and for me this is it...

Getting more nervous! ( 1st December)

Assalamualaikum...

By AidanZ

3 more days to go till the wedding... and what do you do?

Some of my friends suggest to practice the aqad recitation. Don't embarrass yourself, they said.
While some... well... most of them actually, just happy to tease me about the magical ----- (you know what i mean)

One of my friend recently sat with me and tell me at length about how to treat a wife. Mostly you just have to be firm, Z, he told me. Give appreciation whenever it's due but don't ever hesitate to give reprimand, also whenever it's due.

Another of my friend tipped me to clarify things (all the do's and dont's) from the very beginning. Clarify all the expectations! Don't wait after a few months or by then it might be too late to change things back to where they were supposed to be. Excellent tip, i thought

While another advice came in the form of  'wait and see' kind of approach. Everybody's different, said my friend. Make sure first what kind approach suits best for your wife and then act upon it. You're good at reading people. Should have no problem with that!

Because i was considered a little bit late to be married, maybe i kinda 'lucky' because i have so many friends that just ready to share their marriage wisdoms with me, and i'm really thankful for that. If only it can make me less nervous...

Huuuu, the waiting... agonizing yet exciting...


AidanZ