Endless Love

Endless Love

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Oh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind

'Cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
That You know I don't mind

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause no one no one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

 

Best of both worlds ( 29th December 2009 )

Assalamualaikum...

By AidanZ

We talk about changes all the time but very few of us are ready when it came descending upon us. The question is, how well would you embrace and adapt to the changes or you simply resisted it with all your might and power?

Still talking about the recent married life of course, I still remember how not so long ago, I, proudly and a little bit arrogantly, announced to my close friends that I won't change any of my lifestyle after i got married. I remember saying to them, I'm a city boy at heart... to the core, and nothing can change that. Nothing whatsoever!!

 
And I truly believe that! After all, i have no reason not to. I've spend my almost entire adult life in KL, and I can't just picture myself living in my hometown in Masjid Tanah.

But now, guess who's longing to go back and get settle there? Yeah, it's ME... the city boy at heart... to the core!!!

Funny when I think back of how nervous I was about getting married because i was scared i can't continue with my 'city thingy whatever', yet now so readily to embrace the changes which may alter the course of my life as i see it before.

Is it honeymoon effect? Or is it simply Love?
OR... maybe it is the destiny that lies waiting all this time, and just recently awaken by the sacred vows of marriage?
Hoho, whatever it is, i will keep my eyes wide open and pray to Allah for His Guidance. He knows better of what material i really made of, and will InsyaAllah, show me what's best for me and my family.

As for now, I will have to try balancing life of the two worlds.
And try to get the very best of both worlds...

P/S: Looks like i changed my mind about putting my wedding photo here huh. Hmm, talk about changes..

Me and My Wife ( 28th Dec 2008 )

Assalamualaikum...

It's been three weeks since my last post and three weeks also as a married man.
Do i like it? I Love It. As simple as that. No need to elaborate more.

I've been asked to put my wedding pictures here, but i found myself grimacing each time i look at them. In my mind, i said, it's not me. It was somebody else, wearing baju melayu, samping, tengkolok/songkok, while posing and smiling awkwardly, as if wishing he was somewhere else! The only time i really enjoyed posing for pictures was with my friends, and even then, i still look uncomfortable in those attire!

Hehe, my dear wife will 'tarik muka' if she read this. Sorry honey...!

So i decided to put one picture here. Not a wedding picture. But a photo of us, honeymooning at Cameron Highlands two weeks ago. I don't know about you guys but I think it's a good photo, and most important, bring a smile to my face each and every time i look at it...

One picture speaks a thousand words, and for me this is it...

Alhamdulillah... (5th Dec 2005)

Assalamualaikum...

By AidanZ

After a very loooong day yesterday, Alhamdulillah... i'm finally a married man.

It was a chaotic, full of emotions... and as i said, a very loooong day.
I would never have guessed, i would feel sad, stressed, yet an hour later, excited, happy, elated, proud and so many other emotions i don't have the vocabulary to write here!

But, as people always say, All's well when End's well.

Here, i want to thank personally to my brother, Aizzuddin and his wife, Wan Zorah for being there exactly on time. As i about to enter my then wife-to-be's house, the sight of them arrived with my beloved nephew, Hasif, and little Husna, made all my nervousness gone and brought a smile back on my face.

Also to my housemates: Alias, Iidil, Pidut and Shah; who arrived during a very long 'khutbah nikah', they gave a jolt of excitement to a rather 'dull' groom, before the aqad nikah, which thank God, only took once to complete.

Not to forget, all the wish-wishers that gave me something to distract my mind off the exhaustions and all sorts of emotions all day long, yesterday.

What can i say. Indeed, it was a very exhilarating moment. The second all the witnesses around nodded their heads in unison and said "sah...!", all while the clicking sounds and flashes of camera focused on every move and facial expressions, i forgot, how nervous or how uncomfortable i was at the time, as relief started to flood inside my heart while at the exact same second, it shouted, i'm a husband now!
Hmm, as i said, exhilarating!

But, as much as i want to spend this morning writing about all the touchy-feely stuff, i still have to prepare for today's kenduri. While I always know i'm not a big-functions-or-being-the-centre-of-attention-kinda-guy, i don't know how much i hate that until yesterday - all the photographers, giggling girls, forced smile, huh, really tiring. But i guess, this is part of the deal and i just have to bear with that a little while longer.
Oh, how much i look forward to being alone... hmm.. you know, with.. hmm.. ok, i better stop now, huhu.

Your tired yet happy friend,


AidanZ




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Getting more nervous! ( 1st December)

Assalamualaikum...

By AidanZ

3 more days to go till the wedding... and what do you do?

Some of my friends suggest to practice the aqad recitation. Don't embarrass yourself, they said.
While some... well... most of them actually, just happy to tease me about the magical ----- (you know what i mean)

One of my friend recently sat with me and tell me at length about how to treat a wife. Mostly you just have to be firm, Z, he told me. Give appreciation whenever it's due but don't ever hesitate to give reprimand, also whenever it's due.

Another of my friend tipped me to clarify things (all the do's and dont's) from the very beginning. Clarify all the expectations! Don't wait after a few months or by then it might be too late to change things back to where they were supposed to be. Excellent tip, i thought

While another advice came in the form of  'wait and see' kind of approach. Everybody's different, said my friend. Make sure first what kind approach suits best for your wife and then act upon it. You're good at reading people. Should have no problem with that!

Because i was considered a little bit late to be married, maybe i kinda 'lucky' because i have so many friends that just ready to share their marriage wisdoms with me, and i'm really thankful for that. If only it can make me less nervous...

Huuuu, the waiting... agonizing yet exciting...


AidanZ

It's Not The End Yet (28 Nov 2009)

Assalamualaikum...

By AidanZ

Okay, i don't know what has gotten into me, but out of nowhere, i feel like i have to write something in here. Anything...
To be honest, my real last post (by real AidanZ) was way back in Feb, when i did review about "Geng: Pengembaraan Bermula", which you can count yourself, almost 9 1/2 month ago! Somebody can get pregnant and deliver her baby during that period! Phew! During which i also lost about... let say... all my blogging friends... that was quiet many at the time. Hmm, pity...

Although this blog wasn't entirely go dormant, thanks to Mullah and lately, Mas from Australia (who contribute the last 3,4 posts before this one), i for one can say, this blog has never been the same since...

I've been thinking a lot about this blog lately, and of course the most logical thing to do is to resurrect it...
The fact that i can write about almost anything again makes me feel excited. But if truth be told, I was excited before... and I still 'neglect' it for more than 3/4 year! And as if it's not enough, i'm getting married in 1 week period (on 4th December 2009), and obviously, i'll be more unavailable than ever!!

So my friends, for those who still sometimes come and visit this blog; If you didnt see any new entry from me (from now on, i'll put By AidanZ each time i write), please leave a message and remind me about my vow just now, will ya? Maybe i just need a reminder that i can still do this, no matter what. Hmm, I don't know what will happen in the future, but i sense... i will be very... very... very... glad and grateful if i can nail this! Hehe, call me 'cold feet', panic or whatever, i really mean it!


And lastly, wish me luck as i enter a new phase of my life as a married man on the said date...
Please pray for my happiness and most imporantly, to have a blessing and rahmat from ALLAH...!!


Thank You,


Your nervous... yet excited friend,
AidanZ

28th November 2009

Shark of Life

My friend, Ms USA send me this story to think about...

The Japanese have always loved fresh fish. But the waters close to Japan have not held many fish for decades.

So to feed the Japanese population, fishing boats got bigger and went farther than ever. The farther the fishermen went, the longer it took to bring in the fish. If the return trip took more than a few days, the fish were not fresh. The Japanese did not like the taste.

To solve this problem, fishing companies installed freezers on their boats. They would catch the fish and freeze them at sea. Freezers allowed the boats to go farther and stay longer. However, the Japanese could taste the difference between fresh and frozen and they did not like frozen fish. The frozen fish brought a lower price.

So fishing companies installed fish tanks. They would catch the fish and stuff them in the tanks. After a little thrashing around, the fish stopped moving. They were tired and dull, but alive. Unfortunately, the Japanese could still taste the difference. Because the fish did not move for days, they lost their fresh-fish taste.

The Japanese preferred the lively taste of fresh fish, not sluggish fish. So how did Japanese fishing companies solve this problem? How do they get fresh-tasting fish to Japan ? If you were consulting the fish industry, what would you recommend?

How Japanese Fish Stay Fresh: To keep the fish tasting fresh, the Japanese fishing companies still put the fish in the tanks. But now they add a small shark to each tank. The shark eats a few fish, but most of the fish arrive in a very lively state. The fish are challenged.

Have you realized that some of us are also living in a pond but most of the time tired & dull, so we need a Shark in our life to keep us awake and moving?

Basically in our lives Sharks are new challenges to keep us active and taste better...The more intelligent, persistent and competent you are, the more you enjoy a challenge.

If your challenges are the correct size, and if you are steadily conquering those challenges, you are Conqueror...

You think of your challenges and get energized. You are excited to try new solutions. You have fun. You are alive!

Lessons of the story:

1. Instead of avoiding challenges, jump into them. Beat the heck out of them. Enjoy the game. If your challenges are too large or too numerous, do not give up. Failing makes you tired. Instead, reorganize. Find more determination, more knowledge, more help.

2. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.

3. Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards...Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!

4. When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

5. No one can go back and make a brand new start. But anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. So, Show me the SHARK!

Nursery Survey

I received a call from Pendekar Kucing (a friend of mine) today. He told me a about an insident that happened to one of our friend, his baby (2 1/2 month) now is in the ICU because of bleeding in the brain. This happens just after 2 weeks he sent his baby to a nursery. When i heard this stuff i feel so sad, and i believe all mothers will be feeling the same. So, i would like to do a survey, if you have heard or experience any accident involving nursery in our country, please share with me. Maybe with these stories we can do something to improve our Childcare services.

Thank you.

Alhamdullilah...

15 Oct 2009

Hi it's me again. Last time i did mention about my friend who is in labour (delivering baby). Alhamdullilah, she got a baby boy at 13th October, 8.23pm. She is a very strong woman. She's in labour for 31 hours. This make me so grateful (Alhamdullilah), because i was in labour for only about 4-6 hours. All the man should be thankful for this, they do not have to feel the pain at all.

Just a summary of what Mothers will be feeling, from start of the pregnancy until the delivering part.

1- For the first 3 months, mother will be extra careful, for the baby safety and extra manja with the husband ;)
2- For the second trimester (3-6 monts of pregnancy), parents will be discussing about the baby's gender, most of the mothers want a girl, and father want a boy, but at last, parents will say, it's ok, as long as the baby is healthy.
3- For the third trimester (7-9 months) esspecially on the 9th month, mother, will be feeling, the pregnancy is already too long and very eager to deliver the baby.
4- During the labour, em, i can't explain that, but the husband need to be very2 patient and be extra supportive to the wife, because she's realy having a tough time.
5-After, the delivery, parents will be so happy with the newbord. But, the mother will say, no more baby. This is the only time i am going to get pregnant, and this feeling will last for about 6 months and maybe can last for years. (This is what they called labour trauma).
6- Finally, your life will not be the same again with the little one. So, for those couples who are still single, or will be getting marry soon, just enjoy your married life before planning to have a baby. Try to know your partner better, as it is very important in buiding a family.

Today..

Today..

Salam and hi, i am Mizan's mother, Mr. moderator gave me the permission to write in this blog (thank you). So, today is my first entry and also my birthday. I just want to make today more memorable ;).

I just send my son to the baby sitter, and go to the antenatal clinic with my friend. Her due date (to deliver her baby) is today. (So, 3 things are happening today he..he..). Today make me relize how independent i am, i need to handle a baby and a pregnant lady and do my research study all in one time.

Yeah, when you are getting older, you can't depend to anyone else, you have to learn to do by yourself. Actually, in the past, i am a spoil doughter (since i am the only girl in my family), i always need to ask my mum whenever i want to do anything.  But now, i am a mother, i can't do that anymore..he..he..

Change to other topic now, I just want to wish congratulations to Bagan Pinang voters who had make their choice..and, do not forget to ask the Winner to fullfill their promises. If they did not, use your right and don't afraid to complaint.

Ok, i'll continue other time, as i need to time my friend's contraction...;) bye.